BooHoo! School is really draining all my energy=( Lessons are so tough=( No matter wad grades i get, so long no needa repeat any module can alr. I feel like giving up alr and then partial. Its killing...

Back is giving me prob.. Definitely cant sit for long. Its complaining alr. Cant stand the aching etc.. Sigh!

Stand alone.

Morning world! Im currently hook to this song, 没那么简单 aft hearing it on the radio ytd...

沒 那麼簡單
就能找到聊得來的伴
尤其是在
看過了那麼多的 背叛
總是不安
只好強悍
誰謀殺了我的 浪漫

沒 那麼簡單
就能去愛 別的全不看
變的實際
也許好 也許壞 各一半
不愛孤單
一久 也習慣
不用擔心誰 也不用被誰管

感覺快樂 就忙東忙西
感覺累了 就放空自己
別人說的話
隨便聽一聽
自己做決定

不想擁有太多 情緒
一杯紅酒 配電影
在週末晚上 關上了手機
舒服窩在沙發裡

相愛沒有那麼容易
每個人有他的 脾氣
過了 愛作夢的年紀
轟轟烈烈 不如平靜
幸福沒有那麼容易
才會特別讓人 著迷
什麼都不懂的年紀
曾經 最掏心
所以 最開心

曾經

Morning retards... Hasn't been here for a week. Imma having pretty severe mood swing so dun step on my toes. I dun knw why eh.. wadever lah hor... Just dun have the mood and patience so dun pissed me right off else ya gonna regret!

9 more mins to start of lesson. Foxtrot sch.

Seeing u smile from the bottom of ur heart is all that matters! =)
Just want to see & know that you're happy and doing good=)
Just want to make ur day more beautiful and sweet=)
Just want you to rmb im here=)
Know u having a tough time and ya very tired=)
Rmb, im always here so long its within my capability=)
If got anything, can just kick me in the ass and share ya=)
You smile I smile! =)
You ok I ok=)
Fight battles tgt was wad we agreed to do tgt! We'll jiayou tgt ya=)

You sianz u nv say lor until just now.. Me no like=(

I may not be an awesome person but i'll try to make ppl ard me happy and smile. Especially those that are very close to me. Seeing them smile and happy at the end of the day, everything is worth while=)

Ok, today was a slow and lazy day. It seems like when sianz, we all sianz tgt... Back to sch tmr. Long week ahead. I'll try to survive..hah. Bye world and i hate this humid weather!

In class..so bored! 2nd break now, nth to do as no needa prepare ppt for 3rd meeting. haha! So happy eh..can relax abit=)

Just some things on my mind... Didn knw aft sharing things wif u, it makes me feels lighter=) Yes, share the burden and it will be lighter. Now i truly understands it. Aft sharing, i really felt so much lighter. Never knw it can be a heavy load off my mind/shoulders. I must really take my hat off u to be able to dig out the deepest thing from someone who dun share much! Like wow, Salute man. U shall be the first and the last who i will share that n probably every other things=) Thks for ur support & rmb ur promise! If only everyday can be like ytd... We talk, share, cry, comfort, support, encourage each other and then aft that we can still be chatting happily, 嘻嘻哈哈的. 那该多好啊! =)

May end lesson early today! =) Shall see wad i shd do...

Random but ya... During the holi, i keep hearing this particular song over n over agn on the radio. The first time i heard it, i fell in love wif it. Finally one day i knw the title of it. This song depicts how im feeling i suppose...

Picture perfect memories, scattered all around the floor.
Reaching for the phone cause, I can't fight it any more.
And I wonder if I ever cross your mind.
For me it happens all the time.

It's a quarter after one, I'm all alone and I need you now.
I said I wouldn't call but I lost all control and I need you now.
And I don't know how I can do without, I just need you now.

Another shot of whiskey, can't stop looking at the door.
Wishing you'd come sweeping in the way you did before.
And I wonder if I ever cross your mind.
For me it happens all the time.

It's a quarter after one, I'm a little drunk and I need you now.
I said I wouldn't call but I lost all control and I need you now.
And I don't know how I can do without, I just need you now.

I guess I'd rather hurt than feel nothing at all.

It's a quarter after one, I'm all alone and I need you now.
And I said I wouldn't call, but I'm a little drunk and I need you now.
And I don't know how I can do without, I just need you now.

I just need you now.

Oh baby I need you now.

Morning fcuking world. Im in sch and this is so boring, so so boring! Did not sleep last nite. Just too many things gg through my mind=( All of a sudden heavy downpour now..My mood is just like the weather..

First day of sch.. Same old shits to do. Hi my name is.... My course is... I like to.... Then read problem statement, discuss, do worksheet, discuss, do ppt then present n lastly 6P. Go back needa do evaluation, quiz and rj. Totally no life, dudes n dudettes! Sigh!

Holidays out, School's in tmr! =(

Simple day today.. Rest and relax=)

Unlike ytd, today i managed to held back the tears for countless times. It was so tough to do it... Knw im gonna cry myself to bed tonite... Oh wadever. Just me and myself in the room. But i haven even turn in for bed, tap is alr on... How retarded of me? ='(

Feels so crappy. Bye world, off to my own world with just myself and all the emotions.

=(

Tears drop today. Why this year tears drop so often? Its the 3rd time tears drop at home. But this is the 2nd time boy n sis aren't home when the tears drop. HAh! Is it me or the surrounding or wad???

="(

I cant really seems to put how i'm feeling today into words.

Morning had a swim. A xiong one i wld say. Swam more than 15 laps and we played the most thrilling slides=) Cool! And we all slept like 2-3 hrs only. Now my bones are breaking & aching and my heart is dropping & failing.

Woke up from afternoon nap(which i didn really slp though) to see ppl all posting on fb and twitter that result is out etc. My heart sank immediately. 整个人都慌了. I dun knw wad to do. To check or not to check. At that point of time, all i needed was a support... Someone there for me. Nv felt so timid and unsettled b4... I dun knw. I dun want to knw either. This isn't cool at all. I dun wan retake any module... And i shd end this post soon.

Im totally moodless for anything right now. My heart just cant seems to settle down. Bye tards!

Hello retard world! Hello silly world! Hello cruel world! Hello idiot world! Hello sickening world!

I'm prepared... No im not! haha! Ohhhhhhhhhh...Wadever! Just knw im gonna be in deep shit. Oh, this is so boring, so so boring. Si bei sianz! Thats all... Just knw i cant sleep at nite..

Bye tards!

Currently listening to the silly track that the silly bear, panda recorded when we went kbox 2 days ago. Upon listening to it, it really lift me up a little at least. Always laughing and smiling while listening to it. Thks bro! I dun need many frenz, just some close frenz will do. He is more than just a good fren, He is like my own younger brother=) Do cherish this relationship we have.. Its not easy to build that up. From stranger to good fren gg through teens tgt to like sibling. Its takes a lot of effort and time to do it.

These days has been pretty down. Down down down down down. Mainly becoz sch is starting in like 1 week time & also, result is coming out. Do u knw my level of dread-ness to go back to sch n getting the results!? =( Sigh! Big big sigh! I dun wanna go back to sch n i dun wanna see the results! =( I dun wan! Im totally not prepared to face wads gonna come...

Arghhh! Well, i knw I can complain all i wan now but when the days come, i still hafta face it. I always act as though im able to take/face everything and im able to accept wad is coming my way but truth is im not that strong actually. Not always i can do it. Im not God. I have feelings too..