F-A-T-I-G-U-E!!!

Morning drag myself out of bed for driving lesson. Due to lack of rest n sleep therefore driving off form..LOL...Aft driving met li xin, wenan and sherman at hgm...Went to buy the things needed for baking wif li xin then we went down to the 'baking acadamy'! HAha! =D

Li xin's egg tart turned out really nice! I also wanna make it next time! My choco fudge cake is like some big cookie! LOL...Not really successful.Neh mind try agn next time, hor mandy? HAha!

Evening went to panda cave to visit the pai kar panda wif firefly.Indeed a pai kar panda! Not cool! Get well soon dude! =D Wait for u to cycle out for nice sinful food.HAhaha!

Ok, today is mum last day of work.She is jobless alr.Why resign so early? April then resign mah...Now my holi is somehow being watched by her.Like she will knw wad am i up to for the next 2 weeks till i start sch...Not cool!

K, tmr off to miss tan's hse for lunch! Can get to see them, and that spells YEAHHHHH! =D

Back from whole day of work! =) Tired yet fun and enjoyable! HAha! Enjoy working wif cool ppl! heh!

Ok, tmr morning got driving then down to mandy's hse for sth eh..HAha! Shhh! LOL....

Panda injuried his knee AGN! Toot! Now, i hv to be short of one khakis whereby i can jio to go out for makan etc...Not cool! Anw, many marshals down as in sick, injuried or wadever lah..Pls recover soon yea...

Aft work had dinner at hq there...Nice food! I like! =D K, my brain is powered off alr...Dun knw wad to write liao...Byeee!

feel liek crying it all out, feel like shouting it all out and not bother..

Tired tired tired!

Back home at close to 5am in the morning...Straight away K.O!! Then slp till like 11am which is very little of slp.Bath fat doggie and then i went out to meet my fellow stags marshals! Suppose to meet at 11.30 at city hall but hey, i'm not those irresponsible type.HAha! Got inform them to go ahead and dun wait for me coz i knw i sure late one...HOhoho!

Met them at suntec city.Todays plan supposed to be picnic and kite flying at barradge(spell?).But we ended up at beach road to get out new uniform which is the long sleeve one and then also sew the valcro(spell?) on whereby we can put our name tag and company logo.HAha! Cool! I like=D

Work tmr at dairy farm! Tues is gg to be jia liat. Coz those who are gg to work, me of coz, are gg to try out the new uniform.Die man! Hot die you eh! LOL...Aft work tmr gg to meet jess and kwt for dinner...=)

Surprised i can still hang on until now, was so sleepy just now..

Am looking forward to tues for some reason yet im not looking forward to tues for certain reasons! Toot!

Its true that certain things once broken, it cannot be mend back! Never! I hv been trying my best to hang in there but theres limit.Once i let go means i totally wash my hands off this matter.All i knw is to not fu chu so much anymore.Tat's tat..I doubt i can hang in there for any much longer...Tiring u knw! And i hate to be sandwiched in between! I DUN like! =( Its been years...Im seriously tired of it.The hurt, sadness etc that is inflict on is not little.

Cemetery this midnite.Dun wanna go but do i have a choice? Ans is No! Slept at 2+ in the morning then 7.15am wake up for BB...Then tonite can forget bout sleeping alr.How wonderful is tat? I really dun wanna go...I wanna sleep. I pity my doggie, got to be home alone the whole night..

BB parade today was cool...First time wear full u eh...HAha! I quite like except for the fact that the shirt's cutting is like...Tailor made one, do until abit weird.Enrolment service for BB is on 25 april in church...Quite scared, scared i will march wrong etc=/

Life isn't that good.But life still goes on...Roarrrrrrrrrrr!

Had a great day today! Especially morning!

Met up wif miss tan and adwyn like finally! =D Met them at the punggol park and then walked down to rp the wet market to get food for cooking yong tau fu. But today miss tan did almost all the prep and cooking.Feel so bad.At the end help her wash dishes...At least i feel better=)

Then slack at her hse and her sis came home.Nice to meet her sis=) I really enjoy the time spend wif them for it is so enjoyable and i really treasure it. The tot of sch reopening soon spoils my mood totally! Cant get to see them as often as holi=( Sighhhh! I definately miss them a lot..=(

Noon brought adwyn to my hse..HAHa! To collect the physics stuffs and pass to miss tan.She giving physics tuition, and since i dun need my stuffs anymore i can let her hv it..but m not sure if it is useful not coz diff syllabus alr...Really enjoy the short period of time wif adwyn! Really thank her for trusting me wif her son..=) I'm like treating adwyn like my own bro and treating miss tan like my sis=) Am so gonna miss them when sch start! =(

Aft tat, ff came to my hse to pick me and tuan up.Went to xms to pick wei and then off we go to beach road to meet mm and sai! Finally got new boots! Magnium horrrrrr! Not cheap eh! Sai, wei and me got new pair each! CooL! Thanks man! Can retire the 1st gen of saf boots alr! =D

Then went to pick ponyo up and down to ikea for dinner, meeting and fooling ard! HAha! Ff, mm and ponyo had meeting and the rest of us, went to act like a fool at ikea and courts! HAha! Had fun..Everyone i met today makes my day and week a better one=) Am thankful for all of them to crossed my path, esp miss tan and adwyn=)

There's many more reasons to smile and be happy abt than to frown and be sad. We cant change situation but we can change how we deal wif it! =) Every obstacles serve as a purpose to make us stronger. JiaYou! Though u may not say or show but i can feel sth isn't right, i can feel u aren't really happy...Takecare! =)

Driving lesson tmr! =)

Failure, am really, indeed a failure! Cant even maintain a GPA of 3.0! Fml! Toottt!!! Wad a loser and failure=((( Ppl improve i deprove! Wad have i been studying for that past semester!? Cant even get 3.0! Slap myself hard for being such a failure! Roarrrrrrr! To bring it back to a 3.0 is going to be real tough! Really tough! Arghhhhh!

No ver today...next week.

Badminton wif clique ltr=)

Hearing and ver tmr...May be gg.Nv go to that kind of place b4, can go see see look look also to knw how it is like..The atmosphere is gg to be so unbearable tmr.

Back from dental appt...

So op is still inevitable.But coz i'm only 19 this year, doc say dun op, too young.If im like 20+ he definitely op.He say try all the ways and means first, if all really doesn helps then op.But usually the case is DOSEN help.LOL....And the success rate of the op is 80%...

If op ah...at least 1 mth no makan sia! =( Only can take in liquid like milk, soup etc. No solid food at all! =((( Coz the op will break one of my bone up..then aft op he will tied the bone back to let it join back then also tie the teeths so it will not be out of place...Therefore no food intake is allowed! =((

How sufferable it is to not be able to eat for at least one mth.Aft that ah sure become bamboo one...Skinny like one kind.Pants all can wear but cannot stay, will drop.LOL! Kkkk, think i shall go back slp..Slept at 3+ am and awake at 7am..Me no like! Tiredddd...haha!

Nitez world=)

Just got home! =D

Still damm bloated! Had all my 3 meals at one go...Meet ff, panda and redeye at my hse there de bus stop then we bus to serangoon to have ma you ji.Followed by durians then walk down to kovan there the selegie soya bean to have drink and beancurb.Damm full man! Aft that the auntie gave us some 20+ balls of tang yuan free...Seriously damm full after eating... oh, and all the laughter we had, laugh until cry can...lucky got tissue.HAHa!

Dental appt tmr...Goshhhhhh!

Just woke up...Slept at close to 3am sia...Tired man!

Ytd went for the St Andrew BB AQ cum Stags! Fun and tiring and the boys are not easy to manage...Got to shout at them, but not very workable so must shout "5,4,3,2,1" then they really quieten down and listen.Walaooo! But overall fun and goo experience=)

Aft tat went back to HQ wif all the weapons and everything....Bath and then went out for late dinner...Nice food man! I like! =D Then back to HQ and slack a bit and we had our meeting which ends at abt 2am...

As usual ff send me home...thankfully she stays hougang! haha! Ok, i'm hungry man! I need food!

Certain things or ppl in life 是不值得我们为他们付出的 but some are just worth it! I knw who and wad are worth my time, effort and energy and who or wad dosen. I really thank God for those ppl who really & sincerely care for others. They are the ones tat really 值得我们为他们付出的一切的! =)

Even a simple thing like sms can do the job, it can show how much the person really care for you...Really thankful=)

Today is the only day of relaxation n rotting at home...LOL.Tmr gonna be hectic! Gotta be in pps by 6.45am then set of for BB AQ.A whole day thingy.There's stags also but got to wear BB polo instead of stags polo and also LBV.Sianzzz! I wanna wear stags polo coz its black! Tmr gonna be damm busy.At nite got dinner but think i not gg alr, coz still gotta be at hg for meeting..hmmm! Let me see how...

Plan to slp early tonite...PLAN! Dun knw can anot...LOL! Am craving for buttercup mudpie alr!

Had dinner wif some of the cliques at chomps and dessert at ice cube! =D Shoik! Especially the buttercup mudpie! yum yum! Delicious! hehehe! This few days really sinful sia...as in the amt and type of food i ate! Roarrrrrr!

Ok, tmr quite busy too...lazy to post alr.Bye folks!

Back from driving! =D It rain heavily while in the midst of driving.Vision really reduce like 70%..Not cool. Then today drove longer and did most of the things myself. Like the instructor didn hold my steering wheel unless needed. Then today learn U-turn, half clutch which make my leg tired and also did abit of reversing..Heh!

And i realise driving is really not as easy as i thought.You got to always be on a look out. One thing i dun like is my right leg cant control the gas pedal well=( Roarrrr! no like eh! Then traffic light = troublesome coz need to brake clutch accelerate etc...troublesome right.LOL..

kkk, tons of hse work waiting for me to do! =S Bye!

Crap! Damm kock up! I've nv change my opinion at all! Didn even ask us and straight away tell us tat.... Wad is this!? So we have got no rights to give our pt of view lah. So u dun need to spare a tot for us, how wonderful it is! >:( If Anything happens, u gg to get it from me. I dun care u my who who who! Once something goes wrong thats it! End of story!

Certain things i'm flexible, or rather most of the things but NOT this particular issue! Never! unless i die or i see changes! If not, over my grave!!! Ass my life can!

Cast tat aside, today went for stags.Morning tw came my place meet me and we walked over to ff hse in out stags uniform wif our tactical pants folded to knee length and we wore slippers.Like some pa sat auntie and uncle.LOL....

FF cooked spagetti for us to eat. Thks! Then drove us home to get our bags, boots and LBVs and down we go to HQ.Quite fast, we set off for our work at dairy farm.Yes, dairy farm agn...Skss students agn also..lol.Not bad lah...today was rather fun coz panda and me get to play in the last game! Shoot the ppl down and taking then out of the game was fun! Too bad for u lo..

Ok, so tmr my schedule is driving lesson in the morning and then home to clear the mountain of hse work=( Any kind soul to help me?

Tired ttm! Woke up at 4am. Firefly picked me up at 5am..then off to HQ to pick up MM and Princess + all the weapons and walkie and everything lah. Down to jalan kayu for bf and then off to dairy farm for work.

Did all the mission brief, bang bang shoot shoot and everything. Then when done, pack up and off we go to whampoa for lunch. Coincidentally say moon keih's parents there. CooL! People were all starring at us as though we are like some special comms ppl.HAha! Mayb is becoz we had out walkie wif us...

Next was game at curtin uni.Tired man....Running low on sugar. But still get done wif it.Then to whampoa for food again! HAha! Chicken wings rocks! Aft that ff send me and panda home.Thks!

Out for makan wif panda. Durians and tissue prata! Shoik! Thks for the treat for prata! =D

Ok, am really stonnnnnn-innngggggg away. I even ask panda if he is gg tmr when all the LBVs are at his place. Dumb man! Tat shows my brain is powered off! Ok, off i go and bath and then K.O! Tmr long day also...ff picking me up at ard 8.15am!

Just got home not too long ago...Went for sakae buffet dinner wif benedict and kwt at rivervale mall! Damm bloated! Enjoy the time we spent tgt.Especially kwt.All the stupid and disgusting things she did! Faintz!

Ok, got work tmr.! Gotta be awake at freaking 4am! Eve will pick me up at 5am! Faintzzz! Can someone just kick my ass at 4am to wake me up!?

Who is true and who isn't?

Home awhile ago...Was at hope helping sam to pack her library the whole day.HAha! Then evening went for dinner wif kwt.Had kfc at cp.Then bought durian and water, walk to some playground at blk 321 there and eat + chit chat! Chatted for damm long...From the moment we seat there which is like 9+, talk until 12+.Power sia! HAha! Send her off b4 gg home...Had a great time wif her...all the chit chatting and heart to heart talk bout a lot of things=) Thks friend!

Sianzxzx! Gotta go get the BB stuffs for sat alone tmr....=/

Morning went over miss tan's place to meet her and Adwyn..Bused to hgm ntuc to get the things needed for our lunch prep! haha! Prepared beef burger! Cool! I like! Aft that went for my first ever driving lesson.HOhohoo!

Fun man! Drove a mitsubishi lancer. Really enjoy the process...Changing of gear etc.HAHa! Drove at 60km/h, tats the highest.Nv stall today.Heh! Meaning engine nv die on me lah.HAHa! Cool! Gotta control both my legs...Shake-ki seh! Next lesson is next thur..Cool! Hope i dun forget the things...

Sian! I'm really bothered by it.Sigh, wad to do? How now brown cow? Its making me emo every now and then...me no like! Vexed ttm!

Back home from soya bean.This time round special...No need cycle or bus.Best ah, got fren drive.Cool! Thks sherman! Ok, he came pick me then wenan followed by felicia.Drove to jalan kayu there the soya bean.Yum yum! I like! =)

Then nth much...send us home and also collect camera lens from jia hao=) Ok, tmr or rather, ltr, got project 3 followed by my first driving lesson! =) Excited yet nervous and scared!

zzzzz

Just came back home smelly like some stinko...Morning sherman met me at my hse downstairs.My dad driving us to work.HAHa! Went to rp mac to buy bf first.

One whole morning i was like belaying like siao...100 over students to belay seh! Plus its my first time belaying.Quite fun but then agn, the responsibility is big coz its like someone's life is in your hands u knw...Had lunch then rest awhile and start agn...But afternoon was much more relax for me coz lesser ppl to belay...Like ard 70 students only as compared to morning...

But for dao jian, afternoon more xiong.HAha! Who ask him doing the zip line one...Suay! Aft work walk to nsrcc to take the bus out to mrt...Trained down to airport and had popeyes for dinner..Cool!

Then bused home...Damm tired, we fell asleep..Might be gg out ltr! Pls get the car dude! haha! And till now i keep having the feeling that the harness is on my legs and butt...Not cool!

Nth much today...Went to collect pay and then down to NDC for appt.Aft that went li xin's hse to mahjong.Lose until negative sia...=( Then dinner and pool wif sherman...Working tmr wif sherman also...Hope things will be good tmr=)

Didn knw it can be so serious! Why didn i get treatment a few years back? Now, aft the research, is like i'm totally caught unaware abt the seriousness of it.Sigh! Things seems to be so dull now...=S

This morning went to see the dentist.Make me farking wait for 1 hr ++.Not cool! And i salute myself for still 'entertaining' him wif a smile on my face! Then, he was saying since the splint is giving me prob, dun wear alr. Next mon got appt agn wif him and a joint specialist.Oh oh! Die man....Tat is the last resort to fix my locked jaws.Its a surgery....Shall see wad the specialist say on mon....

If surgery can fix it why not? Sam was asking me to ask ard and get more info and see if there is other ways to cure without having to go through surgery...Perharps i shall do some research on the net ltr...=)

Just now cycled down to c2 to meet wj.Damm long nv go down c2 alr.HAHa! Had some sort of catch up...Then cycle to ave 8 for dinner. Really miss the noodle there.Aunty is as nice as ever, always giving us a big portion...Then went cycle ard and home..Maybe gg out ltr..Shall see how..

Tmr i still got cny visiting.Cool or wad? Noon 1pm my mum's frenz coming over my place..Then aft that 6pm we all leave for another person's place.Busy man...Morning got BB somemore....My holi like quite pack also...LOL.

I need money but quite lazy to work!

Tired! Morning woke up at 9am...Met miss tan and Adwyn to go buy stuffs for our cooking.HAha! Walk to buangkok ntuc to buy the fish, potatoes etc etc...HAha! Enjoy every moment we spent tgt for it is so meaningful and of coz fun=) Along the way we surely learn sth new, be it useful or not, we still gain new knowledge! Dun u agree?

Life is not just abt money and more money which many ppl out there think that way.You cant even bring ur money to coffin wad. Got so much for wad? Die alr also cannot bring wif u and use. Happy or not, be it u r rich or poor..its up to you how u want your life to be.I'll still prefer to be poor but the happy one. Money cannot buy the relationships/friendships etc that u and ur frenz or ppl ard u has built tgt.Its simply priceless. No matter how rich u r, u wun be able to buy all this kinship etc... Money only allows u to buy things that makes u happy for a moment, after awhile u will find it no long interesting and all...Get my point?

Mum say i stupid, got money earn dun wan earn.Walao...Come on lo, life is not just bout money.We may not be well being but life is really not bout money.I have plans wif others, how can i pulled if off so last min? It will coz so much inconveniences for others. And most importantly its the trust between u and the other party that is important lor, somemore we've make plans alr.How can i call if off so last min just to earn money? If is like urgent matter like got relative admit to hospital then i nth to say. Trust takes a long time to build but just one sec can break the trust alr.Its that fragile...

Certain things u have to experience it yourself and see it wif ur eyes then u will understand.Well, hope ppl do understand my point...Yes, sometime i will becoz of sth then last min push the appt i had made away.No one is perfect, humans all make mistakes wad, We are not God who is the Perfect one.All we can do is to minimise our faults....There is this saying: Forgive Us Our Debts, As We Also Forgive Our Debtors..Get it?

Ok, i feel like some aunty talking abt 人生的大道理.Age is catching up alr.HAhaha! Enough bout it=)

Notice the smiles of children, the songs of the birds, the caress of the sun's warmth. This sweetness is for you. Allow it to soothe your soul and bring a smile to your face. Yes, it does bring a smile to my face when i spend time wif kids, especially Adwyn and Hope kids.They are kids but they also teach us certain things in one way or another...Even any kids out there also.

I find little children like them are interesting.Like how they see things in life, its so different.Sometimes it can be frustrating or funny.Wads their point of view of sth and when they share their life wif u. One may seems liek a pampered child but he/she may not.There is a story behind everyone's back.There are just so many things to explore wif the kids, serious.HAHa! K, u're not in my shoes, u wun knw exactly how i feel and think=) Even the naughtiest child has a good side too, i'm serious=)

Ok, enough liao.Plans for tmr, shall go cut hair..HAha!

Wealth does not come from your bank account, wealth comes from the depth of your heart.What you really want is happiness. You might believe that a fat bank account will get you there, but that's false. Happy people are happy rich or poor, unhappy people are unhappy rich or poor. Money simply masks your real being by giving you activities to occupy your mind. Don't fool yourself, recession or not, your true wealth comes from your heart and is always only there.

I wld like to share wif u guys that i passed my BTT! WhOoSh! =D

Ok, cooking at my second hideout tmr! Will be whipping up fish and chips! Cool! Am gonna see my 'sis' and little cutie Adwyn tmr! =D

Looking forward to tmr! =D

I'm just so happy today and i thank God for eveything! =)

BooHooo! Slept the whole day today.HAha! Ytd the awesome peeps were at my place...Some stay till 7+ pm..=) Had a great time!

Ok, btt tmr! Holy moly! Pls! i wanna passed it at once! Dun wanna retake! Roarrrrrrrrr...Keep my finger crossed! Really very scared i will fail=S Already feeling nervous now..NOT COOL!