Welcome to my life...This song came at just the correct timing=) Somehow some parts describe how i feel..HAha! An old song but yet nice=)

Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you
Do you ever wanna runaway?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life........

I'm OK! =(

Do your best & God will do the rest???

I feel like a loser everytime when i feel weak and down. So much so for a loser. Im gonna be so dead on fri=( Good luck to myself. This week is gonna be yet another pretty emo week i guess.

Just some random thoughts...Feels weird when i dun get sms from you. Think this has become part of my life like a daily thingy that i need so i knw u r here.. Feel like texting u but dun knw wad to text.Probably, i shd be back to myself. Just myself and not rely so much on you. Think these days i have been replying too much on sis. Perhaps, i need to stand on my own...

Actually idk wad im thinking and wad i wan. Sometimes i contradict myself. I've lost my way somewhere out there far far away. Probably in the far far away land in the Sherk 3 movie..Hurhurhur..

And im really a loser, not only feel like but i am one! Hasn't been attending talks etc to collect CE points this semester. Alr half way through the sem and not a single point attain yet. Loser! Just wad am i doing or thinking! So much of laziness and laziness can kill and get one into deep deep shit!

This is my 1234th post.HAha! Random-ness!

Life. Wads life all about? Life can be filled wif happiness, sadness, obstacles, love, hatred, hurt, surprises and many more. Life can be anything and everything one cld have/experience...Its how u see life. Everyone see things from different perspective. My life is filled wif all sorts of emotions and happening things. But dun compare becoz there is always others out there who are worst off than us.

Actually, i wld say i've lost my way long time ago. I dun knw wad i wan and hope for. Lost my way is one of the last thing that it can happen. Without direction, one is not able to move forward and towards wad they want. I ask myself many times, wad i wan in life. I ended up wif no ans.

I need to find my way back. I gotta be strong and prove wad i wana prove! I need encouragement and motivations! Lots of it! I need to have hope in life and not just live life coz i have to. Most importantly, i need to be self-discipline!

Dun knw why but just have a sudden urge to post such a weird weird post...Crazy me! HAha!

Anw, knowing that ppl/friends ard me misses me, it makes me feels that im important to them. Getting smses from them makes me feel so blessed that ppl ard me do care for me. Honestly, i miss them too! I miss the laughter tgt as a team of colleagues and also family esp we have new addition, Gina and Raine! I miss the time we had tgt at HQ and fooling ard wif all sorts of nonsense! I miss playing our favourtite weapon together at the estate! Miss all the fun we had! Haven been seeing them for pretty long! Im so happy that im not forgotten. Thank you ppl! You guys are not forgotten too, my fellow cool bunch of marshals! =D Hope to have an outing tgt soon!

Alright, back to reality. School's in tmr, weekends are out! =( Really feels damm sian! I need a hard kick to get me going and moving on! Sianzzzzzzz..kkk, enough of crappy crab! HAha! Off to bath..=)

Late nite walk, chat, supper wif sis was awesome! Enjoys the heart to heart talk! Sorry, i just cant open up yet..=)

I got to be up there, hold on & put everything back in place!

Who I am wasn't who I was..

Hasn been blogging for a long time! Now then i realise i neglected my bloggy.LOL...

Life's the same... Just that there is world cup during this period of time.. Sch's the same..everything also same...Sibei sian sia! zzzzzzz!

No feel to blog..dun knw wad to write...signing off!

Back home...Am feeling so damm sian and moody! =( There's still sth for me to seriously think abt it and make a decision! Actually i alr hv a decision in mind but its not accepted. Sigh! I seriously dun knw how to deal wif it for the first time=( I do hv my reasons behind my decision, i do. But i dun knw how to say and i knw i nv say u will nv knw...I really dun knw how to say it to you.. Argh!! Slap myself!

Alright, 4 days 3 nite over at another home was awesome. Great chats session, supper and the time spent tgt! So precious moments that one cld ever hv in life. I'm thankful, tats for sure! I've nv want to go home so much aft im done wif my things outside. But during the stay there, i hv=) Thanks so much for taking me in for 4 days 3 nites. Really appreciate you peeps, the care and concern given to me and the company! Xie Xie!

Both sis and ah boy are sick.. During the stay, see alr also heart pain... Get well soon!

Driving this morning was pretty good i guess. Did both parallel and vertical parking. Not as difficult as i tot it will be...


Back to one square now..Really feel damm sian! SighhhhH!

I knw i hasn't been blogging for quite sometime alr...I cant be bothered these days.

Mon till tmr am staying at sis's hse. Wonderful time spent tgt, no doubt! =) Let me try to recap things...

Mon, went over sis's hse, did some revision then evening went out to kallang leisure park for movie marmaduke tgt wif tim. My first time there...Yea, i knw im a noob. The movie was nice.

Tue: Stayed at home the whole day. Rotting like some ass. Did nth at all! =(

Today: Morning went for dental appt. Gotten the date for the surgery alr. Forget it, not gonna say much bout it. Then home and did nth all the way also...Slap myself man! Last nite tonite..

Tmr: morning got driving.. then i dun knw do wad alr. my last day over at sis's hse(home)..Sianzzz!

I've got no mood to do anything. I just dun knw why! And i do get mad at myself for not doing any revision at all! But i just cant get myself down to do it! Arghh!!! Probably i need to calm myself down, sort out my thoughts or sth... I dun knw wads making me feel this way though... The first few lines of the song 最近 tells how im feeling now... Emooooooooo

Back home. Its still early....

Rot the whole day at home and on my bed. Noon sis delivered lunch for me. So sweet of her. Really appreciate it! Thks thks! She cooked dumplings.Yummy yum! =) Really thks thks! Am really thankful! She is a blessing send from God! =)

Evening went to her place. Supposed to babysit ah boy but her students fly her kite. She really damm ultimate nice man! If i'm in her shoes, i sure angry one. How can they be so irresponsible!? She not angry but i am! How can treat ppl like that? Roarrrrrr!

Ok, so met panda on the bus and went for tau hui tgt. They very good! Two of them gang up to tease me....Tsk! Then bought durians and went up sis's hse to eat. Enjoy the time spent tgt...<3

FTT tmr...Wish me luck man! Really hope to pass it once and for all and book my TP. Sigh!